lIfE gOeS oN

27th May 2013

How was it? Did I pass or fail? Unfortunately answers are not available to anyone. What about my performance? No one is bothered. Next phase is ready with my new targets.  I got to just move on with fresh start because I don’t know place to dump my failures. It’s all gambling of mind because it is me and my life.
Finally mail flashed on my desktop and my transfer has been confirmed. School-college-job! Where am I going? Whether ever I had thought of going to place like Bhivpuri for that magical term called CAREER, when used think about my future in school days? Is it right path am I walking on. If this is asked to me then definitely I will say I am on wrong track. But I am not capable to perfectly judge it. Everything seems correct here and no answer is wrong?

Just quick review of my journey so far; scholarship exam, SSC exam, CET, till my selection in Tata Power, everything is above satisfaction. Now I am at one more critical interface where feeling of satisfaction is little missing. At end of everything I have to convince myself that its hunt for something to justify your life to yourself. 

Our mind keeps wobbling in fixing upper and lower deviation of happenings (or incidents) which are likely to hit us in future. We are in continuous efforts to align our today with tomorrow. But normally it doesn’t go that perfectly. There is always something ready which is going to strike out your limits and you found yourself landed in some puzzled state. This is how we learn to have more stretched target ahead. All I m trying to match the day I joined here and now when I am leaving from here (not fully but partially).
A girl says it was me who started your day and your day didn’t go well. It starts with very simple things. It is like roaming in garden full of colorful flowers in pleasant atmosphere where many things are getting framed inside. Then few months down the line, all of a sudden its unknown desert.
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a JuVeNiLe iNNoCeNcE

I reached Ambernath station and its already 6:30 PM; I have only 13 mins to spend with her before my next train arrives for khopoli.

After around 10 years, she was with me; except once or twice I had seen her  but not alone and; in my fantasies. When I was priority for her, we were not knowing meaning of priority, and today I am not her priority at all.
How beautiful a girl is!- has direct linkage with how many are attracted towards a girl. She was not among beautiful damsels, but still she always remained special for me. A girl, her beauty, attraction were not part of my thinking when I was in school. But somewhere in corner of my mind those things were always lingering for her. And surprisingly in her mind also. 

6:43 PM- train is standing in front of me, If miss the train then I will miss my bus also; whereas If I miss these couple of minutes now; then most probably, I would meet her  in marriage directly. By the time train started moving. Now my next train is at 7:39 PM after one hour. May be she also wanted to spend some more time with me. Actually there was no any special topic, I had to discuss with her, whole discussion was revolving around normal 'hi and hello chat'. 

I remember, it was my SSC exam time. I had made up my mind, if not now then never, its my last exam paper means last chance. I have to confess it to her. I completed my exam, I was looking for her outside exam hall; unfortunately I could not find her anywhere.

At around 7:00 PM her phone rang. The special one was on other end waiting for her on Thane station which is around 45 mins from Ambernath Station. She had to move now. Though her 2nd priority had left train for her to spend some more time, and 1st priority is waiting her somewhere else.

We went to different location for studies after SSC. Keeping communication with friends was not so easy those days since that was not era of mobile, facebook, SMS, etc. Hence there was no contact for many years and when I got her back during my final year of engineering, things were changed, priorities were shifted. New friends were attached to her including a special one also.

I got call after some time; voice was not clear, I could here some sorry and all but I could not talk much due to network problem. Fortunately now I am very much accustomed to such things.

16th Feb 2013.
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fRee HaNd wOrK wiTH gRaPhiTe,,,,

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fInaLLy i oWn A fLat iN MuMbai.. :)

29th Jan 13

Whats the normal story of everyone when he enters in city like mumbai hunting bread and butter. First thing is to search for home. Getting a job is more easier than getting a home in mumbai. Around 8 years back, I entered in this mumbai MAYANAGRI. Initially I took help of my relatives; but that decision made me run all over the mumbai in the hunt shelter. Unfortunately everyone turned out to be helpless. After completing hectic journey of four years, I landed in company where company accommodation was available very easily and that was life time as long as I am with the company.After enjoying these ready made homes, Time has come to look for own flat; to say-this property belongs to me.

Initial thoughts started with small budget home. If not in mumbai then look what outside area says! I checked prices in area like mulund, thane. But it did not work. Then I asked a estate dealer lets walk 10- 20 km away more. But still prices were too high. I started walking on periphery of mumbai and my radius was increasing day by day.

I took decision to visit the places personally, so lets check area like navi mumbai-kharghar, Badlapur. when I checked on 99 acres, it was looking possible. I contacted one real estate agent in kharghar and planned to see him. When I went there, he convinced me that my budget of 20 lakhs is not good enough to own a flat on navi mumbai till panvel. He provided me options ike Taloja and nevade. With his one assistant I went there, almost all area was under construction. This area was very closed to proposed metro station but own by muslim people. I was not happy with location and we came back to his office where i saw that dealer was seating actually a real estate invester who was looking like left hand of Laaloo. I was introduced to him. He gave me offer saying i like your face so I can give you a flat in Ulwe at 3500 where the current rate is more that 4000. Then I decided to visit Location. I saw a small village was turning into a jungle of building. Newly coming sewri navha sea link and extension of harbour line in this area had made all these changes. When I looked at placed nothing was clear, there was not single proper road, all that I had to imagine only. Future was looking bright but it  was minimum 10 years down the line. But still with thought of getting 1 BHK i turned back to home. when my was asked by my father -how to reach there, I could not answer properly.
Next week I decided to check Badlapur. First I checked Krishna height everything was perfect;early possession, proper connectivity 15 mins from  station and within budget. Further to that I saw one more place called shashwat park.

When I went back I was having three option ie Ulwe which is full of dust but tomorrow was bright; Taloje was good but yet to develop and locality was little issue and last one was a much safer one -badlapur. And final call went to Badlapur. Decision was approved by family, because of early possessions and low risk. I had seen a flat on third flour but unfortunately 5th flour flat was written in my destiny- shashwat park Y - wing 502.

people say getting a flat in mumbai is dream for a maharashtrian. But I was not aware about boundary of mumbai which is increasing drastically today.
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Its was very popular in earlier movies and serials; that people are entering in different world through a membrane like interface. ie harry potter enter the world of miracle through a wall,etc.
This is very much analogous with social networking site where we interact with unknown people without any real contact. The word social networking immediately diverts our attention to sites like facebook, twitter, etc. Facebook is very famous in young generation.

Someone opens the account; sends requests to girls. Few requests get accepted and many remain unanswered. Then first question is 'Hi'.Then if you are enough fortunate then reply appears;then soft soft flirting and so on. A boy sending request to girl, chatting with her, but there is one thing always missing ie a concrete trust. Ultimately whole relation depends upon a single mouse click; beyond that their existence for each other is zero.Any one person can understand only side of this interface whereas  other end is always imagination. If there is delay in reply means is she chatting with someone else also? Such things are always remains there.

But If a girls want to be a fake celebrity then facebook is good option. Just keep uploading photos and accept friend requests. With small chatting conversation can make you can facebook celebrity with more than 4000 friends in the list.
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sHaDes oF ThOuGhTz oVer A sKeTcH

Human can think. This is statement of three words but if we understand the meaning. then definitely I can conclude that above fact has created a lots of changes in this universe.

A sketch is posted on wall of my room. Whenever a new person happened to enter in my room, get to see this sketch. I got variety thoughts or opinions on this sketch from different people.

Thought no 1- one madam had seen sketch. she said-they are in deep love with each other. and. the way they are holding each, it seems that they will never depart from each other.

Thought no 2- It was replica of cartoon picture that my hands had tried to draw with help of a pencil and a blank paper. One more senior had visited my room and saw the picture. He observed carefully. Finally concluded that the hair style of boy in sketch matches with mine. Both of you are not maintaining your hairs properly. His hairs are as unstructured as yours.

Thought no 3- It was in line with first one. That they are involved in highest intensity of love. and for a time being, they have lost connectivity with rest of world.

Thought no 4- I was among the most junior ones at my workplace, I was in contact with seniors only. One more such friend saw sketch. He found waist of boy is very narrow. It is not matching with picture, it looks odd.

Thought no 5- My one more friend shaded the picture with love. But this time I asked him to observe the picture and tell me what is wrong in the picture. He said- its perfect picture. It reflects good sense of love. Both of them were away from each other and could not see each other for long. And now after long time they are together.

Now I can say that there are two types of opinion. People who are talking about love includes two girls and one boy with broken heart. whereas other two have not tested flavour of love, Or just going mechanically.Its just a thought; not any kind of conclusion.
There was one more opinion I found ie. the artist of the sketch is ditched by a girl; and after that he has drawn it.

Now Lets see how did I draw this sketch.I had seen same sketch drawn by one of my colleague that I liked a lot. So I searched the same picture on net and drew it. After completing it, I was searching for right place to keep, Hence I decided to paste it on wall. There was no thought of love while drawing it.   
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